Boyton St.

If there's one thing I don't like about rainy weather, its the gloomy, depressing feelings I get along with it. I don't know why, but most of the time I feel depressed when it rains. To me its strange, because its not like I go outdoors much anyway.

My wrist has been bothering me for a couple days now. I hurt it a few months ago back when I was trying to work fast food, and once in a while it still bothers me. I keep hoping that maybe I'll work it out and it'll go away, but so far it hasn't. I'm starting to wonder about it.

Mom has to attend physical therapy sessions a few times a week. I'm taking her because she has trouble walking anymore and tells me she doesn't trust herself to drive right now. I hope this therapy helps...

I'm still on the job hunt, and I plan on breaking the bad news to the boss men of the bands I'm in. I will tell at least one of them anyway since he'll of course be there tonight. I'm going to tell them to be thinking about and looking for a person to replace me if I can't be there. I know that I will have to give up Tuesdays for sure. Weekends are still kinda iffy. It depends on the job I get. I still need to tell them anyway. I can't quit the way I've seen other musicians leave. I will give both bands plenty of time to find a replacement for me before I stop coming. I've accepted that this is what I need to do for the time being until I can find something better that will allow me to play music on the weekends. I can't think of too many places for a person like me to work where I could have my weekends to play music. Fast food places are not an option for me, I can't keep up with it. I've been there, tried my best, and ended up jobless again within a week of getting hired. I'll say there was definitely a lack of training on their part, but I still should have caught on to some things faster than I did.

I'll find something I'm sure... anything will be great. I just have to tell the bands that I might be leaving and start focusing on what needs to be done.